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I miss you, Mother.

Shannon told me the dreams she and Susan had about you,
and how you always asked about me.
How you will ask Shannon, where am I?
And Shannon will reply to you "there she is" and point to me,
waiting for my school bus at our old Bedok home.
She told me you always wore the same kebaya...
and donned the same short curly hairstyle just like how when you left...

Just the other day when I was rummaging thru my old photos for the montage,
I came across the album that had photos of the funeral.
I was overwhelmed with emotions.
I couldn't help but question what it would be like if you were still around.
What would our lives be like then?

I know you went to Heaven when I was still young,
and am probably the one that you really couldn't let go.
Dad and Mum conveyed to me...
You once told them in their dreams you are waiting for me to get married,
before going for reincarnation.
This gave me a mixed feeling.
Happy that you are going on to another life,
but sad that you are leaving.
Really leaving this time.

I remembered that I used to always ask,
why is that you never come to look for me in my dreams?
I would really want you to that.
Just like how you went to find Kalene and played lego with her.
I may be frightened,
but I think I would be filled with so much joy in the aftermath.

I am scared.
Not because of how I will react.
But because I am beginning to forget how you look like.
And the memories that I had of you are growing faint.
And that really frightens me.
I have so little to remember you by.

Mother, will you come for our big day?






"I never really held you, but I feel you.
You never really spoke, but I hear you.
I never really knew you, but I love you..."

Finally, an entry long overdue.

Been away for 4 months.
Have so much to pen down, I don't know where to start.

Well, I guess on the hindside & the biggest ground-breaking news of all is...
*drum rolls*

Kelvin proposed last year.
*inserts mega-watt smile*
So I am going to be a bridezilla soon.

It was a modest, knelt-down-flowers-ring-will-you-marry-me proposal.
But his goofiness made it all so much more memorable.

Planned many months back,
he set out on this "mission" with my sis to purchase the gem.
I did tell him not to buy me a diamond ring,
as I will not be able to wear it often, given my job.
It might end up as a white elephant.
But to quote him;
"All girls have one. So you should have one too."
And it came in the little blue box with white ribbon.
Gushes.

The venue was a one bedroom villa at Amara Sanctuary, Sentosa.
Love the place. It was so tranquil.
We had a pool of our own..

The countdown has begun,
but we are, or rather I am, still rather slack in the prep for our big day.
Date has been set; 8th May 2010.
Location: Glass Pavillion

Adore the ghost chairs..


We are also doing away with the traditional banquet.
No ten course chinese dinner,
but instead, a classy 4 course individually plated western sit-down,
tables decked in harry potter style.
With the intention to make it a really simple and private affair,
the guest population has been restricted to 60.
So it is really a ceremony only for the dearest and the closest.

Fret not, we will still be having a big cook off in June,
where all the friends and relatives can attend and view photos & videos of that eventful day.
We both would very much prefer to do it this way,
less hectic, more relaxing and casual.
Oh, and we are not taking any bridal shots too.
I don't want it, Kelvin is more than happy without it.
Gonna put that sum of money to better use - Honeymoon in Europe. =)

The house has also undergone a huge mega renovation.
The whole process was needless to say, one big migraine after another.
But we have finally settled down in our nest and embasking in a homely abode now.
Complete with a walk-in wardrobe to boot.
I think that a home is the biggest and best gift anyone can give me.
A shelter over my head,
a place to call my own.

Work-wise has been great too,
my colleagues are still rocking my sampan with their crazy antics.





At Ruili & David's Wedding























At Andrea & Richard's Wedding

Shift work has been robbing off my sleep though.
Seems like my insomnia is back again.
Kelvin bought me a new memory pillow to treat my torticollis though.
No more neckaches..

Which brings me to end the post with this thought.
I really cannot imagine my life without him.
He completes me.

Kel, if you are reading this,
as I have said so many times before;
thank you for being you,
and for making me, the happiest germackie.

Let it go.

You must learn, Germac.


Learn to let it go.




Holiday coming up! Big plans!

Can't wait!

Grins.

Yippee!! Germackie Shen is a proud owner of...



the hippiest, coolest, tech-iest mobile device ever created!


Oh, how I love u, my brand new iPhone 3GS!
You are everything all rolled into one!
Thanks for being my phone, my ipod, my nintendo DS, my internet browser...
Thanks for even telling me when my bus will arrive at a desired bus stop (ultimate coolness!)...


That said, I can never look at another phone the same way ever again.
I'm a true blue mac lover now.

Hmmm... the macbook air looks fabuloso too... Lol.


P.S.: Kel, I know I have said it a million and one dozen times.
Still, thank you. So so much...
And I'm sorry for screaming into your ears 4275198345o6 times how much I really love it.



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