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Please Remember - LeAnn Rimes





Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And you're left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I, I’ll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me
Though we go our seperate ways
I won’t forget, so don’t forget
The memories we made


Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
While we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me


Goodbye, there’s just no sadder word to say
And it’s sad to walk away
With just the memories
Who’s to know what might have been
We’ll leave behind a life and time
We’ll never know again


Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
And remember, please remember me


Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
While we were wild and free
Then remember, please remember me


And how we laugh and how we smile
And how this world was yours and mine
And how a dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
I had you and you had me






I remembered a game I used to play;
coming up with a superhero power
for every letter of the alphabet.






Amphibious.
Bulletproof.
Clairvoyant.
Danger sensitive.
Electromagnetic.
Flight.
Glow-in-the-dark.
Heat vision.
Invincibility.
Jumping over tall buildings.
Kevlar skin.
Laser sight.
Mind control.
Never-evding life.
Omniscience.
Pyrokinesis.
Quick reflexes.
Regeneration.
Superhuman strength.
Telepathy.
Underwater breathing.
Vanishing.
Weather control.
X-ray vision.
Yelling loud.
Zero gravity.










Nowhere in that list was the power
to keep the one you love beside you constantly.
If a superhero couldn't do it,
how could any ordinary man?






This is my dad.
I think he is the most awesome-est person in this world.
Not because he brought me up single-handledly,
but just simply because he's my father.


Recalling those times when I was still a toddler,
he had to juggle his work and me.
And not forgetting the difficult period after mum passed away.
Through his grief, he still had to care for me.
I had Macdonalds everyday,
till I was as round as a hamburger.
I can still remember so vividly some of the images
when Mum was very ill.
He would care for her at her bedside,
feeding her and making her comfortable when she vomitted.


Then there were those times I was being put up
in a neighbour's place under a nanny's care.
Where I would wake up crying for him every time after a nap,
or disallow him to leave me there,
and refusing to follow the 5th storey aunt home after kindie,
upon which he would have to travel all the way
from his work just to pacify me.


No other way out, he then hired a domestic helper
to care for the family.
With that, he was able to concentrate on his work,
but because of the long working hours,
it meant I saw him less too.
I was asleep, when he was home,
and I was still in slumberland when he got up to leave for work.
He would leave my allowance at the counter,
and should I need extra money for excursions etc,
I'll leave a note for him.
Signatures for report cards and weekly spellings
were also initialled like this.


I was a very sick child when I was young.
Often falling sick, I required much care and attention.
Running high temperatures and asthmatic episodes
were regularities,
and I remembered even vomitting all over
my dad's shirt and pants in a coffeeshop.
Twice.
(That's the first time I ever heard my dad said vulgarities. =P)


When little, I would always sleep in the car
when we're out on family trips,
especially on the journey home.
He would then have to carry me upstairs,
but once I reached home,
I'll be all awake, up and jumping again.
I know I was pretending to be asleep,
but I guess I just love to have him carry me.
Be it lazy or otherwise, it sure was very nice
to fling my arms around his neck,
and lay my head on his strong shoulders.
He ever questioned me when I was about 7 or 8.
He asked if I would still sit on his lap when I'm older.
I said yes, I definitely will.
He knew it was not gonna happen,
but still, he smiled and laughed at my answer.


My dad has many likes.
He loves his fishes (we have 3 big tanks,
minimalised from the previous 6),
and he has a new hobby now - a pair of lovebirds.
Now retired for a year, he has picked up several new fads.
Kite-flying; he simply enjoys that,
and we've done it together as a family.
He would stand, filled with pride when his self-made kite
soared high up into the clouds.
Swimming's next; he used to bring me when I was still little,
at the Bedok Swimming Complex.
Being the handyman of the household,
I also know I can always run to him
to fix whatever I needed help fixing.

Pa, I really can't ask for anything else more
I would want for in a father.
You're amazing.
More than amazing.
Thank you for everything you've done for me and this family.
I love you to bits.










Happy Father's Day.

Insomnia.




Sigh.




-stares at ceiling and prepares self for another round of
sheep counting-




Not working.




Double sigh.




A glass of milk?




Failed. My eyes still refuse to shut.











I think I need a Valium.

Mac: It's crazy right, to love somebody who's hurt you?











Anonymous: It's even crazier to think that someone who hurts you loves you.

Take Me Away - Lifehouse





This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
This time you burn me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away
I've seen it all
It was never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you


Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away


I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
Cause I've seen it all
It was never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you


Don't give up on me yet
Don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
But don't let me stay here alone


I've seen it all
And its never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you
I've seen enough
And its never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you


Take me away
Take me away










I have a lot to say.









Then his picture unexpectedly pops up,
causing a heart-skipping amnesiac moment.




















Now, I have nothing to say.

Happy Birthday to me.




Happy...






It's a whole bunch of baby steps,
but I'll get there.
Eventually.
I know I will.





Big smile, Mac.
It's your day.

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