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Sunday, May 31, 2009 ( 01:53 )

I had hurt myself,
by hurting you...

I'm sorry.

Update (2038hrs): Warmest thanks to all the dearest and the closest (you know who you are), for the concerned texts and anxious calls...

Am feeling alot better now.
I think it's just guys being guys...
And I was just being a girl, throwing an unreasonable bitch fit when I was writing that entry.

One of my chums told me the differences between me and kel
will make us up to be a perfect couple.
After all, opposites do attract.
Another girlfriend of mine had also enlightened me with this statement;
"Look at what you have with him and not what you wish you would have without him".

I should be contented with what I have.
And I oughta just shoot myself now for the previous thread.
The following pic will explain why.

I rather have bad times with you, then good times with someone else.

Friday, May 29, 2009 ( 01:39 )

It's been ages since I last visited it.
Not sure what prompted me to do so.
What I saw brought tears to my eyes.

"Today marks the day where I could really feel happy.
Recap of what I have done.
Lunch was a simple affair at Jack's Place,
in a cosy corner where the table was too small to place all the food.

Food list:
1)Prawns and mango cocktail - Yummy
2)Escargots - Not as gd as I'd expected
3)Potato skins - Yummy
4)Lobster bisque - Yummy
5)Crispy platter - Not good
6)Jacks Special steak - Too full to taste after item 1-5

It's been a long time since I'd been to Jack's Place; the last time I remember was when my Dad brought me when I was like single digit age.
Come to think of it, it used to be a restaurant where we could only go when our parents bring us.
But now, we start to earn a salary and are able to afford such meals. Just a very nice feeling.
The company was perfect too. Right? Right?
Ok. How about a riddle? I never lose but u never win? So who win? Haha.
Then heading down to Giant for my fav activity with my special one.
GROCERY SHOPPING!

You take, I hob, I put in basket, I buy, I carry.
And hold your small hands!

Night was even better. A short 2 hrs really made me feel so happy. Going to Hongkong Cafe.
Sitting down, ordering dessert, laughing abt the past, discussing about the present and of cos,
planning for the future. Its just so beautiful.
Thanks so much. For everything that YOU have given me now.
Love you lots

posted by kelvin"

I miss those times.
Can I have them back?
Sob.

Things have changed.
Indeed, they have.
But I know the love is still unconditional.
It still is, right?
I know I have to learn to be mature,
that our love for each other has escalated to another level.
Not that of courtship anymore,
but not yet of marriage too.
When you stop doing those things,
it doesn't mean the love has ceased.
You just love me in another or different way.
Like my pre-pre-pre-birthday gift.
And the approaching pre-pre-birthday surprise.

I still remember that fateful formulae:
Happiness = reality/expectations
The smaller the expectations, the happier an indvidual gets.
Hence I have really learn not to expect,
so when it doesn't happen,
I don't get disappointed.
When it does,
it's a bonus.
I keep telling myself that,
that I can do it, and live by that,
but am I merely just convincing and deluding myself?

Reading those past entries of yours,
they brought back so much memories.
Those out-of-the-blue trips...
To T3, to sentosa and see Oscar,
to ice-skating, to SAC,
to many other "first times".
With the tiniest thing I do,
it could bring a smile to your face.
With a little flu bug,
it could make you such a worrywart.
Can I still do all that?
Do I really still have that effect on you?

Is this how it really is?
Can things never remain the way they were previously right from the initial stage?
Why?
Why can't they?

The countdown has began.
But you had fallen sick.
Not sure if you remember the science centre trip and got the tickets.
cos you've been so busy with work this week.
Not sure if we're still heading to the theme park for thrill rides,
cos I really don't want you to suffer under the hot scorching sun.
Not sure if dinner is still on, since we are having thai,
and it won't do your sore throat any good.

For every uncertainty,
I am able to come up with a reason.
Or am I just coming up with excuses for you to make myself feel better?
I even told myself I will not be disappointed,
even if it turned out to be just any other ordinary day.
Becos, after all, it is just a birthday.

But birthdays are big to me.
They really are.
And you know it.
I know I shouldn't compare.
But it is a far cry from last year.
You can't deny that.
But I just have to keep telling myself.
You are sick.
You are not well.
You are busy at work.
You had a rough day at the office.
You are tired.
You need more rest.
You need to sleep.
YOU.
That's priority.
Everything else is just secondary.

That's how much you mean to me.
As of day one.
Nothing's changed on my side.
Nothing has.
Nothing will.
I may not be the perfect girlfriend,
but I sure am learning hard to be one.

Becos you are you, everything and so much more.

Thursday, May 21, 2009 ( 23:43 )

In 24 years...

My very first Bangkok trip.

My very first family trip.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009 ( 01:30 )

Description beyond words.
While I'm sweating my butts off in PPEs and N95s,
this encouraging vid will keep me moving, and fighting. Head on!
Grins.

To Joyce and Oslee,

Heartfelt thanks...
My thoughts are with you at down under too.

Hugz.

Update: Big congrats to the cast for being featured on Stomp and Channelnewsasia!

Sunday, May 03, 2009 ( 04:31 )

Ocie & Shannon's Big Day

What does love mean when you are 16
and when you are older at 60?

Love is about those moments when
you do not feel a need for love to be explained.

Love is about accepting that low comes with high
and that the two are inseparable.

Everything in the world is affected by love
and in everything we can find love.

Spoken and written in thousands of languages,
love is the perfect inspiration. The ultimate mystery.

Love is a force. You need to start giving to feel stronger than ever.
Like magic. So powerful. And yet so simple.

Love is a choice. Our choice for a lifetime of love together.
Our resolute notion of love. Our love story.

---- Shannon Sim

Beyond doubt, it was lavishly dished out in style.
Enjoy the pics.
=)

The prep:
A small post-it note detailing the forget-me-not items.

Lynette and Hon G doing the works.

Presenting, Ms Wang (from the Vera Wang collection)

Dowry - Pearl set from Tiff and Co.
Wedding bands - Cartier Platinum Rings (From the Love Collection)

With grinning-from-ear-to-ear dad & mum

Two down, one more to go? *smiles sheepishly*

With Thomas, our nephew, looking all charming

The "sisters" all dolled up in white with hand-made wrist corsages.

The most gorgeous moment a lady will look in her life...

Ocie in his Paul Smith suit arrives...

With his "brothers" all suavely geared up too.

The gate crash ceremony starts. With paper undies!

Outlining Shannon's pet name.

With a pole in hand, and a flower clenched...

The "deal or no deal" negotiation

Penalties continued. With wax strips. Lol.

Uniquely created one-of-a-kind bikini;
true to the song which tone-deaf bro-in-law had to sing -
"Itsy Bitsy Teenie Weenie Yellow Polka Dot Bikini"

Finally, the groom meets the bride.

The tea ceremony...

The Sims Portrait.

Fatigued but still all smiles...

Moving off to next destination...

In Chrysler's 10-seater stretch limo!!

Posing... with their beige Salvatore Ferragamo heels and black Prada shoes in the limelight. Ha...

Sis and me with baby amy, + many papers in hand to make sure we don't "over-run"...

You looked amazing, Cheh... *smiles*

Outdoor shoot (Photography by Lumina Studio)

Back at Hilton Singapore's suite

The night banquet themed French Royal (His Story. Her Story) of 320 guests begins.

Ocie and his bro, Oslee at the first march-in

Shannon and Dad, and flowergirl amy. She did a great job! We were all so proud of her.

The "handover"... with the famous tagline "4 children okay?"

All seated...

with inidividually placed wedding favours of a gift box consisting Molton Brown hand wash and hand lotion, and mini Chupa Chups lollipop with bow ribbon for each guest.

Specially made themed centerpiece for each table; each three-legged centerpiece was designed and made to stand firmly on the outer circumference of the lazy susan, and left on the table throughout the entire dinner – unlike other wedding centerpieces where they would normally be removed once the first course is served. Décor by PDI Artline.